After Appointment Epiphanies

Well we went to our first PRENATAL VISIT.  Oh yeah we did..... what we go every 4 weeks then every week?????   This seems super crazy but i guess it is necessary.  Well we walked into our first appointment and sat down and our midwife seemed surprised to see us.  She started off by saying that she thought we seemed pretty pro home birth (and to be honest we were) and asked us why we chose her.  If it had been me to answer I would have said something to the effect of "well we really thought it over and felt stronger to to deliver with you."  But I wasn't the one who answered.  My wife did.  What was her answer you ask.  "it came down to the financials"  As these words came out of my beautiful pregnant wife I got to watch as the woman, who will be providing all the care for my unborn child, shrug her shoulders.  What a total bummer for her.  What my wife didn't verbalize is that we liked both midwives equally and it seemed easier for us to deal with out choice because of the insurance issue.  I will have to explain.  

Well the visit went really well. The was peeing in a cup...... guys never have to do that it seems.  We go to hear the heart beat which was totally awesome.  I have been reading that this point is when "it sinks in."  I find myself really confused about this notion.  It seems that guys have a hard time coming to grips with the fact that there is human child growing in the loved ones uterus.  I have never been able to detach myself from this notion at all.  Ever since we found out I have seen the changes in my wife.  It has been a constant reality for me that we are creating life.  I never understand how guys can look beyond the obvious and realize that without some kind of proof.  I must say it was a little reassuring to hear the heart beat to know things were ok and that my wife wasn't going crazy but I kinda knew it was really  happening.  

Maybe things are different because I am totally excited about this whole adventure.  I am reminded of a famous opening " the final frontier these are the voyages of the star ship [baby] it mission to seek out new life and new civilizations, to boldly go where no[parents] have gone before."  Lets be honest.  This is totally new territory for us both and we trying to take in stride.  This are going to be out of control for some time. Well at least until it can fit in one of those child leashes.  I just thank God for being able have the blessing of raising a child.  Also for having a wife that lets be honest is willing to throw all control of her body to the wind and chance.  I can't imagine what that must feel like.  We have both been really lucky that her only issues have been mainly with exhaustion.  She can eat everyday and has had no nausea issues so far.  Lets just pray that they don't materialize.